This world will always let you down...

I've been on a little bit of an emotional roller coaster lately. It's not PMS, because it's been happening for about 2 months. This past week made it worse, though...

I heard the news about the Sullivan boys on Thursday night, then officially on Friday afternoon. I broke down sobbing in the middle of freaking Barnes and Noble. TBird and Jeremy just looked SO sad. Like someone died... I can't really explain it. I just know that I've never seen that look in Tyson's eye before. It's just SO sad to me. Sullivan was incredible, really. And I'm not just saying that because the guys are friends of mine. They really were good. Great, actually. Not only that, but they are good guys... I remember meeting Brooks when I was 13. Back when Mike worked at Music Go Round too. Mike actually introduced me to Brooks. Wow. I remember Brooks telling me about his band with this other guy Zach. The band was called Sullivan and it was Brooks and Zach. And Mike for a little while. Every single time I would go to Music Go Round, I would just sit and talk to Brooks forever! He was so interesting to me... and so sweet. Fast forward. And I can't remember the official first meeting of me and any of the other guys. This summer was a good time- I got to know all of the guys better and met Phil's fiancee Natasha, one of the sweetest and most genuine people I've ever met in my whole life.

Now that Sullivan is over, I feel like a part of all of the guys died, and that makes me sad. I cried because I knew that the guys were sad. Promoting them, going to their shows, and hanging out was so much fun. It's sad that it's over- at least with them as Sullivan.

Geez, I LOVED working with Tyson. And now he's gonna freaking move? Tyson is one of those people that you can learn from- from just talking. Not even serious talking. Tyson is so passionate. It's inspiring...

Zach and Jeremy are always making me laugh. Fun guys.

Brooks is my bud. I've known him for awhile now, and it's cool that we're friends still. He told me recently that it's weird to him that I'm in college because he still sees the spunky, happy 13 year old in me :) Brooks is a musician. A good one. I'm proud of him.

And Phil. Oh, Phil. I never knew anything about Phil, really. I always he assumed he was quiet and didn't have much to say. But through this wedding of his that I'm planning, I'm getting to know him, and he is such a cool guy. And he adores Natasha, which I love. They are so cute. I'm so glad they're getting married- because they are the couple everyone hates because they're so perfect for each other. :)

I guess I'm just sad about the end of Sullivan. I mean, who isn't, really?

It might be dumb that I care so much, but whatever. I do.

In terms of other things, I need to get my head on straight. I'm in like. And it's currently killing me. I have GOT to stop freaking getting my hopes up. I have to. And that's all I have to say about that. For now.

You think you do, but you don't know me at all.